The pull of midwifery

I love my job. VERY much. But sometimes a break is what is needed. I normally hate going off call, for fear I will miss a birth. But today I am going off call for an entire weekend (we take one per month), and I feel happy to be going off. I have great plans, and I will be able to sleep every night. I am grateful for this weekend sans-pager.

Of course, when I am rested, I will be dismayed if I return to discover that a baby of my client's was not born into my hands. Maybe I'm addicted to my job.